~~losing??~~

how does it feel like to lose a friend? does it hurt as much as losing a lover? or does it hurt as much as losing a part of you? i already experienced that. its hurt, deep, inside. losing a friend right now? am i ready facing it?? am i ready to endure the pain of losing someone again? i dnt think so. i dnt think i hv any extra heart to be broken because all of it are still under maintenance.

people will change. true. either they will change for a rainbow or for a storm. that situation, its a cycle of life. but why i think this cycle was so cruel to me or am i the one who being too sensitive?? the changes, that was unaccepted. yup, i cnt accept it. dat something that made us really fall apart. i feel like i already lose you, the person that i knew for a decade. the new you, for this time being i think i will tune myself into denial syndrom, keep deny and deny the pain of a presence of the new you. i just dnt want to believe dat our friendship will gone to its final straw. it will never happen!

losing a close friend is worse than losing a lover. i believe on it. we always believe dat they will walk away when they played tricks on us. when its done, its over. we need to move on and find another one but it cnt be implemented on friendship. we always think that a true friendship is not supposed to fade away. we will stick forever regardless of situation or status. i kept convincing myself to hv faith in our friendship. i hold it tight in my heart may our frienship will last long, no matter how time flies, no matter how world spin night and day.



indeed, the hardest part of losing a friend is having them there with us through the storms of life but they are no longer there with us when it is our turn to dance in the sun. *sigh*

footnotes friend : badly injured, its damn hurt!