closing spirit song for 2012~~~*

Bangkit bila ditolak jatuh bangunlah semula
Bangkit bila diluka nanti pulihlah semula
Bangkit biar bersusah dulu nanti senang semua
Sakit pada luka kan pulih semula
Bangkit

Dengan nama yang Maha Esa
Maafkan aku aku terlena
Mata buka tapi aku leka
Sekarang kita sedia pasang deria kita lebih peka

Siap gerak gempur
Siap rentak tempur
Redah onak lumpur
Maju tiada undur
Tak kenal uzur hingga jasad kita terkubur
Kalau kurang kaki tangan lutut dan siku dihulur

Ini malam kita pakai tanjak songsang
Askar jati gerak senyap yang lain berkompang
Berani segorombolan tak takut bila seorang
Kuatkan benteng jangan ada yang berlobang

Bangkit bila ditolak jatuh bangunlah semula
Bangkit bila diluka nanti pulihlah semula
Bangkit biar bersusah dulu nanti senang semua
Sakit pada luka kan pulih semula

Bangkit bila ditolak jatuh bangunlah semula
Bangkit bila dijajah boleh tawanlah semula
Bangkit ingat ketua dulu supaya jalan lurus
Kalau tidak ditepi bendung ku tak berakar

Sabit kau umpama cahaya
Yang menyinari bumi
Kau umpama Hang Jebat
Yang melindungi hak dirinya
Kau umpama senjata
Yang melindungi tanah
Sememangnya pendekar yang gagah perkasa

Mana Tun Fatimah
Mana semangat Tun Teja Datuk Maharajalela
Mana cucu Datuk Merah
Keberanian Sarjan Hassan dan Leftenan Adnan
Mari memartabatkan perjuangan Datuk Bahaman

Keris dulu dalam tangan sekarang dalam otak
Paling tajam tak perlu hunus keluar tengkorak
Catur congak cukup sebelum langakah diorak
Tanpa rancangan rapi dah tentu kemenangan rosak

Rapat-rapatkan saf dan buka kuda-kuda
Bila bersatu tunggu lihat siapa berani cuba
Yang akan datang menaruh pada yang semasa
Bangkitlah nusantara

Bangkit bila ditolak jatuh bangunlah semula
Bangkit bila diluka nanti pulihlah semula
Bangkit biar bersusah dulu nanti senang semua
Sakit pada luka kan pulih semula

Bangkit bila ditolak jatuh bangunlah semula
Bangkit bila dijajah boleh tawanlah semula
Bangkit ingat ketua dulu supaya jalan lurus
Kalau tidak ditepi bendung ku tak berakar

Jadi bangkit berkumpul di bawah panji berbulan sabit
Tak sujud pada sesiapa di bawah langit
Tak mengalah walaupun betapa sakit
Sebelum layar bahtera mari kita

Berakit-rakit ke hulu berenang-renang ke tepian
Bersakit-sakit dahulu bersenang senang kemudian
Kemudian

Bangkit bila ditolak jatuh bangunlah semula
Bangkit bila diluka nanti pulihlah semula
Bangkit biar bersusah dulu nanti senang semua
Sakit pada luka kan pulih semula

Bangkit.. bangunlah semula
Bangkit.. tawanlah semula
Bangkit.. umpama cahaya 

motivated by this song. it such have a deep meaning. dont give up no matter what obstacles you are facing on. bangkit when you fall. how about if you are falling in love?? kidding..:p~~~* bangkit and terus bangkit!

and my wish?? i wish to wish my wish for this 2012 will be grant on 2013 as it a fowarded wish and i wish this wish will come true..:)))~~~*** you can do it liya!! brapa bnyk wish daa...haha~~*

~~johorian football fever~~*

last nite i went to Larkin's Stadium to watch final match for Piala TMJ with uteh's family. that was not my first time watching live football match at stadium. same stadium but different atmosphere. my previous experience watching that football match with only some fans inside the stadium but at this time the tickets was sold out.amazing rite? that was Johorian football spirit..:)))~~~*

last nite match was between Johor Darul Takzim vs Johor FA Club. both of that team are Johor's team so i supported both (actually i supported JDT more because so many star players there) hehe~~* Muslim Ahmad my hero, defender position..i came just to watched he plays closely and also a man with his breaches, Shafiq Rahim..please dont smile when you play...i'm melting.. muahaha~~* i also can saw other star players like Aidil Zakuan on his no 7 jersi, Mat Yo or Wak Lan (his new puppy name as he now at Johor's team who well known with jawa peoples) on his no 9 jersi, Safee Sali on his no 10 jersi also Zakuan Adha.

and for last nite match, JDT was lost..from my point of view, that was due to poor defend team maybe but its ok..its just a beginning match. try harder for next match yea!:)))~~*

epah with her dad

full house!:))~~*

me with two gedik's girl..:p~~*

they on the field

Footnotes football : Owh Johor luaskan kuasamu..:))

~~Family Day 2013 in advance...:)))~~~**

Its Topa's 2013 Family Day! Alhamdullillah we had successfuly gathered together for our family annual event there at Tanjung Balau Beach Resort on 23.12.2012. For 2012 Family Day's venue, we chose Batu Layar Beach as our destination and for this 2013, that Tanjung Balau had grab our attention.

anak sapo la ni, pakai selipar pon trbalik...:p~~*

some pose before depart from uteh n her hubby

my nieces n nephews, complete! 12 alltogather..:))~~*

In this unexpected weather, for that day the sun completely showed itself for the whole morning until evening and we took this chances doing some sukaneka for our family. untuk memeriahkan suasana org kata..hee~~*

pertandingan kopek kacang..huu~~*

kepit-kepit bola paling pantas..:p~~*

for adult, tangkap-tangkap belon there..:)))~~*

during this event, we also celebrated our mom's + abang's bufday. happy birthday to both of you. may Allah will always bless you both. have a long life yea mak..:))~~~*

both mom n abang

mak n abah..luv u!:))~~*

we wrapped our day with majlis penyampain hadiah to all the winners. that hadiah were sponsored by IKEA..many thanks to my angah n kak ita as an organizer for this event..haha~~*

prizes for winners

Spending time with family is a precious moment ever. No matter how busy you are, u need to make sure you that u have that time for your family or otherwise, u will regret it... forever...

3 sisters...:)))~~~*

Footnotes family day : Need to do in advance sbb thn dpn nk dapat baby baru...hee~~~*

~~steamboat moOd~~**

just come back from having some dinner with my osmet + her fiance also with my mom,uteh n family also with kakak gedik. we were having steamboat buffet at Kapten Steamboat & Gril at Larkin, JB. at first, actually we want to go to Otai Steamboat but unfortunately the restaurant did not open as today is a public holiday for Johor's state. i just thought that the restaurant is open for business like usual n i was so excited telling my sister to hv our dinner there. uteh n family already arrived at the place n we had to change the venue but still steamboat as the main course..:)))~~*

ida n her fiance

uteh n abg emy

epah need some water after playing at the small playground there..:p

for me, the steamboat buffet at this restaurant were quiet expensive compared to other steamboat restaurant. it takes RM 28 per person as the normal price at other steamboat restaurant only btwn RM 18 to RM 20 per head. but i can give thumps up to the ambiance of the restaurant. the surroundings were quiet comfortable and clean and for the food, 3 star for me..:))

buffet style, eat as much as yr stomach can take. i'm so full right now and feel sooo lazy to do anything. fyi i'm laying on the sofa while updating this entry. my cloth still hv the smell of the beef gril also. haha!

me having some abc as a dessert..:))

Footnotes steamboat : cnt sleep with this full stomach. lol..:p

~~indeed.....~~

missing it already..............................

heartbroken fate...~~~

upon hearing that story from my mom, i really hope wat she told me was only some unreasonable rumours made by people talks but when she said it clearly one by one, it seems dat i need to accept it no matter what..its a fate but i wonder that should i really accept it as a fate? something happend made by people mistake should we really accept it as something dat Allah had planned for us?

its really make my heart break into million pieces because of that matter...seriously i cried myself out hoping that it was not true..hoping that things never happen.somebdy please tell me that wat i heard is a lie, somebdy please tell me was i saw is just illusion,somebdy please tell me that not her was that person.why from billion of peoples on this earth she was the one? why?

so that was what it felt when it happened to someone who really close to you.we as an outsiders who did not hv any blood relation alrealdy felt very bad i wonder how her family feel? when dat things happened to other people's family, on dat moment i only can say they need to accept it as dat thing already happend.u can't turn back time. but right now i feel like i want to turn back time so that dat thing does not exists.

right now i blame myself because i forgot to pray for her safety. i forgot to tell myself that i should give extra attention as she need proper guide from the elders.i cnt sleep thinking what should i do to solve this matter but should i interfere with her life as she has her own family with her? i cnt stand only by looking at it. i need to do something to save this situation but what can i do?? dat make me felt so bad..thinking about her future, it make my tears flow without even i realize it.

i just can pray may Allah make this thing easier. i felt really sorry for her. can she take care of herself well? can she manage to accept everything well? i beg her family please do not let her face it alone. if all of you cnt do it, let her come to us because we really love her..regardless of anything.

it happened for a reasons. now or later, we surely can see the hikmah behind it. please you be strong facing it. i cnt see your face right now because i know dat i cnt handle myself looking at u. my heart just so fragile. when it comes to you, i dnt think that i can't help myself overthinking about what should you do for the next phase of yr life. you still hv such a long way to go. just hope for the best. still hard to accept it honestly but i need to motivate myself.

Footnotes : Still cnt sleep at this hour thinking about this matter. dizzy. somebdy please help me..(T_T)

~~maid of honour of de day~~*

my first experience become official maid of honour for kak wahida wedding caremony..hee~~*

kak wahida on her baju nikah..preety

i was arrived at her house at kg.sri jaya on 8.50am. one day before she told me that akad nikah caremony will be held at 9.00am. i drove from my parents house without taking breakfast. my mom told me to wait for my abah come back from buying our breakfst but i dnt hv enough time to do so. my abah arrived just after i started my car's engine and he gave me kueh pulut panggang as my bekal..tq mak n abah for taking care of my stomach at the early morning..hee~~*

with sekali lafaz kak wahida was officially become abg hafiz's wife..alhamdulillah..it such a touching atmosphere..her abg become her wali as her dad had passed away two years ago..how to put it? for me i'll be so sad if it is not my abah become my wali on my wedding day..abah,may u hv a long life so that u can give that responsibily to my husband to be shoulder on yr own..please take care of yr health..i luv u..:))~~*

for the bersanding reception, the bride n the groom was so beautiful wearing blue colour suit.creadit also to de mak andam for making the pengantin so gergous on her makeup.

maid of honour of the day..:)))~~*

the busy me..:)

very interesting experience indeed became one of an imprtnt person (konon2nya) for kak wahida n abg hafiz wedding.may their marriage will last till jannah n may Allah give them eternal happiness with adorable childs by their side.hope also can get the 'berkat' from their marriage..haha!

me try to make roti jala..:)))~~**

~~its december 15.....~~

i'm not a person who good at memorizing number, date, bufday even any importnt event either for myself or people surround me but in these two years, when 15 december showing itself i feel like its hard for me to take a peaceful breath. it seems like i need to absorb an energy all around me to take only a breath..its hard..very hard..


life must go on..true..and thats what i'm doing rite now..but i cnt help myself remembering all those memories that came to my mind..its naturally came..what should i do? should i take out my brain and replace it with something new where i can buy the new brain at any pasar mlm stall? surely i cnt..

i'm trying my best to hv a wonderful like just like anybdy dream..i trying really hard getting it..its a lie if i say that i can 100% forget all those memories but i promise myself that i'll let go everything for sure..i'm not alone in this world, i alwys hv my family beside me n the most importnt, i alwys hv Him by my side.


My secret weapon?


DOA..yup..thats only the weapon that i hv..He gave me that test because He know i can handle it well. He know that what is the best for His mankind..and thank you Allah for giving me such great oppurtunity to experience other side of life and thank you Allah for loving me..

Footnotes memories : i lost almost 8kg because of this matter..ain't it a good thing? huhu~~**

pinky me...:)))~~~*

quiet boring day at lab n i dnt hv anybdy to talk to..

so i took this chance to decorate my tab's casing..

the original casing just plain dark pink so i'm decided to add on some beautiful love's shapes on top of it using felt fabric..jiwang seh...hahaha~~~*

and now i present u the output!

tadaaa...

pinky rite??haha~~~*

Footnotes felt : need to prepare 300 ++ more flower brooch for my osmet wedding...huu~~~**

fluffy la sangat...:p~~~*

cute pic...>.<

do i really need to go on a diet plan?

hrummm lets just postpone it till next year..

it can be my new year azam perhaps! hahaha~~*

so for this remaining days until next year arrive, I can take as much food as my stomach want..

a lot of delicious food waiting for me...nyam nyam...>.<

I'm not dat fat la...I just a little bit fluffy just like my mOm said...:)))~~~*

Footnotes diet plan : sedapkan hati sndri..wOooha!:p~~*

S.K.M.S my love...hee~~~*

walking down to memory lane..:))~~*

have been here for 6 years, my one and only elementary school! Sekolah Kebangsaan Muzaffar Syah..hehehe~~* I had a chance taking this picture at this nostalgic place on my way attending my former classmates wedding. We needed to park in front of this school and walked to her house because the road that reached to her house has been closed for the wedding's tents..hee~~*

let me recall which classes that I had attended during my elementary school..1 Taufik, 2 Taufik ,3 Taufik, 4 Firdaus, 5 Firdaus and 6 Firdaus..if I'm not mistaken...:))~~** and from standard 1 to standard 6 I became a prefect at this scholl...and during my standard 6, I also became the head of prefect here..sungguh poyo ler, sgt xseswai hookeey!! haha~~*

I still remember when I've got the UPSR result..during that time I felt sooOoo frusted..the result was announced in the same day of Hari Penyampaian Anugerah at my scholl. I cant remember what 'anugerah' that I've got but I still can remember that I received that 'anugerah' with tears flowed like a Sungai Congkak river on my cheek at the stage. how embarrassing but I really cant hide my feeling..I only managed to get 4A's out of 5..poor me..huu~~* but I studied really hard for my PMR to redeem my UPSR's result and alhamdulillah I've got straight A's..:))))~~~**

its 13 years already since I left this school. from what I can see, there were a lot of new building built there. a lot of changes have been made at this school also like the landscape, the colour of the building also the wall at the front gate. it become more preetier than before.

right now my niece and nephews also attending the same scholl like me and next year they will take UPSR's exam. to kakak and abang, please study hard! do not spend your time at the laptop or cc more that your books! mak usu really want both of you success with your study..mak usu will always pray for your glory...:))~~~*

Footnotes old school : want to take picture at the classroom pulak..haha~~*

Kate Middleton, Duchess of Cambridge, pregnant with her first child!

hehehe~~~*
I dnt know why am I who got soOoo excited upon hearing this news..
maybe because I am one of The Duchess fans! hee~~*
she was just so lucky..
she just like someone who came from fairytale story, marrying with the prince like in other gurls' dream..lucky you princess!! huhu~~~*

an adorable princess..:)))~~~*

congratulations to Britain's Royal Family for this coming baby!
he or she will become next heir of this royal family..
may the baby will be as pretty as her mom or as handsome as his dad..
hope The Duchess and the baby will always have a good health..
may The Duchess also have an easy pregnancy!:))))~~~*

Royal Footnotes : J.E.A.L.O.U.S. hookeeyyy!! haha~~~*