heartbroken fate...~~~

upon hearing that story from my mom, i really hope wat she told me was only some unreasonable rumours made by people talks but when she said it clearly one by one, it seems dat i need to accept it no matter what..its a fate but i wonder that should i really accept it as a fate? something happend made by people mistake should we really accept it as something dat Allah had planned for us?

its really make my heart break into million pieces because of that matter...seriously i cried myself out hoping that it was not true..hoping that things never happen.somebdy please tell me that wat i heard is a lie, somebdy please tell me was i saw is just illusion,somebdy please tell me that not her was that person.why from billion of peoples on this earth she was the one? why?

so that was what it felt when it happened to someone who really close to you.we as an outsiders who did not hv any blood relation alrealdy felt very bad i wonder how her family feel? when dat things happened to other people's family, on dat moment i only can say they need to accept it as dat thing already happend.u can't turn back time. but right now i feel like i want to turn back time so that dat thing does not exists.

right now i blame myself because i forgot to pray for her safety. i forgot to tell myself that i should give extra attention as she need proper guide from the elders.i cnt sleep thinking what should i do to solve this matter but should i interfere with her life as she has her own family with her? i cnt stand only by looking at it. i need to do something to save this situation but what can i do?? dat make me felt so bad..thinking about her future, it make my tears flow without even i realize it.

i just can pray may Allah make this thing easier. i felt really sorry for her. can she take care of herself well? can she manage to accept everything well? i beg her family please do not let her face it alone. if all of you cnt do it, let her come to us because we really love her..regardless of anything.

it happened for a reasons. now or later, we surely can see the hikmah behind it. please you be strong facing it. i cnt see your face right now because i know dat i cnt handle myself looking at u. my heart just so fragile. when it comes to you, i dnt think that i can't help myself overthinking about what should you do for the next phase of yr life. you still hv such a long way to go. just hope for the best. still hard to accept it honestly but i need to motivate myself.

Footnotes : Still cnt sleep at this hour thinking about this matter. dizzy. somebdy please help me..(T_T)